Goddammit, It just couldn't be, huh? I couldn't just have a "last journal" where I could just focus on work and come back telling YAY I'm done! *sigh* maybe I should just stop calling them that LOL, anyways... I'm not gonna be negative. And for starters, I'm very aware this will read weird for some after I made such a big deal about closing commissions... but oh well, I can't blindly fight what reality throws at me, all I can do is handle my reactions and see what moves I can make next... So yeah, this is gonna be just an addendum to my previous journal 'cuz I wanna keep things short and sweet ^^u The one key word here, well two of them actually, are: STUPID BANKS >_<

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~ BANK TIMINGS ARE GARBAGE... AND HERE'S WHY ¬_¬U

But you already knew that. It has been happening whenever I wanna access my money from SubscribeStar and FANBOX (the latter has a 12hrs difference on top yay, ugh). Of the seven days in a week... I can only do transactions for five, and I better make damn sure is within their 'open hours' and/or 'weekdays', anything other than that and the waiting periods become longer and longer X_x THAT has been my situation for the last almost three months. I though it was gonna be manageable even understanding those conditions, but nope. The worst part is knowing that my money is around in some digital limbo, but being unable to do anything other than wait...

Not to mention the waiting gets too long sometimes, making me run out of essentials like food and/or juggling around paying bills in a delayed fashion... hell, I've barely been able to move the needle on those remaining debts I've, no matter how much I keep planning around... and they keep piling up (it's a very fucked up system I've a lot of grievances with ¬_¬ but whatever). Thankfully I'm not alone with this and a good friend has been helping me, but he can't control those outcomes nor should I expect him to anyway. And of course, spending most of the weeks stressing over all this crap no matter how much level-headed awareness I can muster, completely drains my energy and focus for drawings =_=U

So, since these things have not shown any sign of changing and actually are only getting worse (whatever card companies responsible only keep adding fees to NSFW purchases on sub-sites, expecting us all to gobble them), and even though I'm really glad I decided to stick around with one allowing artistic freedom, I've no other option but to re-open commissions again to balance the weight out. Many of the outlets (like debit cards, etc) I require to avoid and/or resolve my bank-timing/debt problems already mentioned can only move forward if doing so =_=

HOWEVER, I've gained enough hindsight with all these past experiences and this time I'll be WAY more controlled with slots, 'cuz while I really want things to move forward... I won't repeat the same mistakes from before.

OVERALL COMMISSIONS' PLANS:

So once more, given the updated circumstances explained above, and after sorting my backlog for good last year. I'll be opening 1 new slot at least every 3 to 4 old ones from it are completed. The new slot will be announced for a whole day on all my galleries and social media sites, and once I accept it I'll immediately close again. I'll complete it, then continue with at least 3 to 4 old ones again, then repeat the process whenever possible and/or necessary. Depending on the outcomes each time, I might focus on finishing a bigger number of backlog commissions before reopening new ones ^^

Prices have been updated this month (non-retroactively of course, so clients with already taken slots before, don't worry) and a new LVL called BETA+ has been created, which is a more affordable version of LVL GAMMA. Initially BETA+ will be the one truly open for everyone, while all the other LVLs -until further notice- will be open for recurrent clients only. You will all the details on the Commissions' section of this site soon enough ^^

My working and contact methods will remain as before: I’ll be writing clients first whenever I’ve anything substantial to provide. There’s no specific priorities, and outside of each single "new" slots taken during this period each time, I’ll continue to focus on older ones from my backlog on a case by case convenience-basis ^^

I really hope this plan works, and here’s to completing them all soon!

OVERALL SUBSCRIPTION WORKS' PLANS:

While I still wanna focus on the same kind of topics for artworks that I mentioned the last time, in the other hand, I decided to lower overall tier prices back to 5 USD -aka around 750 JPY- for everyone this month. Last time I did the increase to 7.5 was 'cuz I though everything would be different and worth it, but reality shown me otherwise and frankly I don't think you should have to pay extra for all the troubles.

I still wanna be able to submit something ‘almost-daily’ compared to before, but that has proven tricky… maybe I'll just go back to post whatever I complete instead of scheduling, even if more than one drawing per day... the sure thing remains that I don’t wanna fall into those pitfalls of inactivity anymore ^^u Again, here’s to a lot more fun works!

Hooray, managed to keep this one on the point LOL and thanks again for reading ^^
Happy Pride month to everyone by the way, be gay but don't do crimes D: xD

Oh boy it’s been a while, huh? And of course, the moment I wanna start and be done with this asap, my brain starts pick-pocketing around various other drawings and tasks for days… ugh, I hate when that happens ¬_¬u Anyways, here we’re again… and I hope this turns out to be the only “big update” I write, at least until I get to be done with all the things I want to by the end of 2025. I don’t want any more surprises or twists, mkaaay? unless it’s something so radically awesome and welcome I simply can’t refuse it… like "Coyote vs ACME" being spared from the void by *Condiment Inc.* or The Simpsons being renewed up to season 40 (like holy shit even knowing the rumors that made me smile) :V

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Since November of last year, things have gone… quite awright, bumpy rides but nothing derailing. Nonetheless, while I desperately wanted to set on calm ways for good… some crucial changes were required first; some came naturally, others were unexpectedly convenient outcomes… but either way, I took what I could handle to make the most of it all…

~ Dental Plaaan! Slashy needs Ethernet =D

One of the first things I wanted to get over with once the year started was to take care of my teeth, mainly a cavity I had in one of my molars that was extra painful and beyond recovery, although I wouldn’t find out about the latter until I arranged a proper medical visit mid January. The resolution was kinda amusing… The first few dentists I visited couldn’t appoint me until February, and financially speaking –aka the reason I kept neglecting to do it for years- I already knew I had to go the extra mile to AT LEAST have it all done smoothly. While I was ready to deal with the pain for a whole month, the solution came -of all places- from the gym I was still going at the time: one of the owner’s knew a doctor, and she provided discounts to those attending it… funny enough, my discomfort at the moment was what called attention to it, and by the time I got an appointment with her, the pain decided to go away… as if it knew I was finally dealing with the problem ¬_¬  Like geez, sometimes luck strikes me in such ways, that I wonder if reality enjoys keeping me on the verge of despair to appreciate it more or something ^^u

So, I took the chance and did the whole procedure as fast as I could in one day, that whole morning was a mix of fear and relief. A few anesthetic applications here, some cleansing and maintenance there… until finally the molar was removed smoothly =’D and holy crap that thing was SO far GONE; it looked like a melted and burnt deformed candy corn! Thankfully the recovery went super well and with zero complications whatsoever, something I welcomed a lot since I was in the middle of an unbearable summer heat wave . -. Needless to say, I’ve taken way better care of my teeth since then, not that I didn’t do it before… but I was being certainly less responsible than I should have been ^^u Oh, there’s also the discovery that one of my canines –which I thought was far gone years ago and/or never grew- just happens to remain hidden somewhere in my gums, but… I guess that will be a story/development for whenever I’m ready to deal with it =’D

The second thing I told myself I wanted to take care of this year was my internet connection. Ever since I moved into where I live currently, I relied on the place’s WiFi for my work, but it was never ideal ^^u Whenever it wasn’t the many cats living around the place knocking the router device off the wall –not to mention the ISP refusing to replace it “as long as the green light keeps coming, ‘cuz it means is fine” whenever they visited to check on it-  and cutting the connection in the middle of the evening/night/early-morning, it was the people living in the room the device was in –which used to be the landlords’ originally- suddenly closing it, disabling any chance of signal… eventually they moved it upstairs, but that just made everything worse =_=U

There was not much room to complain about it, since access to it was never a given nor part of my payment deal… I just took it for granted ‘cuz no one there gave me troubles for using it, and I guess being the only one around who knew how to fix it when the software worked badly added to the trust too ^^u So the moment I could, I resolved to get my own router device and started paying for it separately myself. It’s another expense outside of rent to consider from now on, but it’s a necessary tool that covers beyond what I need to function work-wise, and it feels great to be in control of it more than ever before ^^

~ Back on the Special K, but not the Cereal...

Another change that happened around November last year was my commitment to keto, although this time like an actual regime/life-style-change to stick around with for good, never looking back. After reconnecting with an old friend from my attempted-college days, who wrote me wondering if I was still following such diet -since he remembered my results going through it in 2018-, his curiosity was enough to re-spark my own about the whole thing. And that’s how -among other things on the subject- I stumbled upon the videos provided by Dr. Bayter online, who talked about the real reasons to follow it beyond ‘just a diet’ and the real benefits of sticking to the commitment. While I was aware of the problems caused by carbs and sugar, I had no idea how deep the rabbit hole of lies from companies and other entities to cover them really went, specially on stuff like cholesterol, salt, fats and many other things. I never realized how truly important is to be mindful of what we put in our bodies. Overall, I would really recommend y’all to research further on this if you’re curious enough ^^

Needless to say I’ve been feeling way better since all those months ago. I never expected such a radical change in my habits to happen, but I mean… after LIVING through the motions with so many foods and things I previously adored to consume as –even if conscious- placebos, yet now seeing how much they were actually affecting and destroying me, fuck… it feels like a wake up call that I finally responded. Things I thought I could "never live without" 'cuz of the provided pleasure and fake sense of “comfort” now just… kinda repulse me, and I’m glad I left them outta my life for good =3 And believe me, I’ve tried so many things before that lead me to nowhere, but this time… this time I can feel the result every single day. And I think the main difference is that now, I don’t see losing weight as the goal anymore, but just a natural thing that happens. My main goal is mental health… and I’ve not enough words to explain you how much it has benefited me there =3 

~ It puts the Routine on the Schedule, or else it gets the Loan again ¬_¬

So overall the year has started pretty nicely in comparison to 2024, and while is not entirely perfect and there's a lot of things that remain to be solved, there’s only so many ways you can react to the unexpected, before you realize is not worth it anymore. And I feel reality -and the previously mentioned big help from some friends- keep showing me that’s the right thing to do; I still take the advice of ‘holding on to the things you can control’ to heart and… funnily enough, lately and in very specific ways, it has worked out for me…

First one happened last month, when my landlords asked me if I could just move back into paying regularly again regardless of my previous debt, which from now on they’ll let me cover on top of those… and honestly I welcomed this, ‘cuz it provided me a sense of “planning” I was missing. As I’ve explained before, they’re very reasonable laid-back people, but sometimes that disturbs more than it helps ^^u Now I feel there’s something basic I can stick to monthly –yeah, as it should normally go I guess-, while before I felt I had to wait for my numbers to be good each time to provide something substantial, an approach that by end was very detrimental in the long run ^^u Granted, given my situation with other financial debts* and everything, this proposal is beyond reasonable… theirs overall has always felt that way; even more so knowing they offered this as an alternative to avoid increasing my rent. I honestly take it as a win ^^

And the second one happened a few days ago at the gym I mentioned. After paying my whole dental procedure -and other previous commitments, like my vacation trip to Argentina, etc- I was pretty dried out –both time and money wise- and by the end of March I still couldn’t go back as I wanted to. I told myself I would do so a few months later in the year -once things got cleared up more- but regardless of that, I needed to be communicative with my trainer about it and not just disappear until then, especially since I got to solve my dental problem thanks to him. When I arrived there to explain my situation, hoping to at least be told not to worry about it and “we shall see you then” or something like that, my trainer insisted instead that I could continue going, even if I had to pay less for a few months just so I could keep the steadiness of a gym routine. I was honestly very surprised, since I never encountered a gym offering me such a possibility before. All this said, I’ll gladly take this chance in the next few weeks ^^

*these are the same debts that by now I’ve just placed in the back-burner ‘cuz I know they will be solved for good by the end of this year. Sure, in a way they depend on tricky factors given my job, but that has always been the case -specially with the fluctuating nature of the internet services related to finances and what not, -not to mention other things going on in the world right now- and frankly I prefer to stay optimistic regardless. And by now I just make sure to always have a Plan B, C and even D if necessary ^^u

So all of these chances considered, there’s only one thing I truly want from now on: a modest sense of tranquility and routine. I just wanna spend my days for a while in a sort of basic auto-mode, with no surprises whatsoever. I wanna be able to focus mainly on my artistic endeavors and nothing else. Always working towards recovering of course, but with a steady hand firmly focused on my self expression and completion of all my pendings ^^!

OVERALL COMMISSIONS' PLANS:

Given the circumstances explained above, and after sorting my backlog for good last year helped me to have a clear view of everything I owe, I decided to close commissions for good until I’m done with them all. Ideally I wanna reach such completion before 2025 ends, but I dunno if that’s exactly how it’s gonna go, time will tell. My working and contact methods will remain as before: I’ll be writing clients first whenever I’ve anything substantial to provide. There’s no specific priorities, and I’ll continue to focus on them on a case by case convenience-basis ^^

Also keep in mind, since I won’t be counting with extra income from them presently, I’ll have to prioritize my subscription works a bit more –even though commissions are-part-of and aid those monthly goals in a way-, so you will probably notice way more activity towards them in comparison ^^u Here’s to completing them all soon!

OVERALL SUBSCRIPTION WORKS' PLANS:

Last month I revamped my approach and organization of them into further ‘LOGS’ to cover more ground, to be more dynamic and quantity-focused with the artworks I create. I wanna give people a bit more bang for their bucks, but without sacrificing my own enjoyment ^^u Also while I’ve been working a bit heavily towards fanarts, since in these times they’ve been a quite welcome ‘comfort zone’, the interest people have in my SDOriginal characters have not gone unnoticed and I hope to do more with them too –specially the Slashy Dawg Bros- ^^! 

Ideally I wanna be able to submit something ‘almost-daily’ compared to before, but again I dunno how that’s gonna go and time will tell… the sure thing is that I don’t wanna fall into those pitfalls of inactivity anymore ^^u here’s to a lot more fun works!

As usual, thanks for reading ^^
This one was actually written using good ol' MS Word 2003,
under the vigilant watch of Rocky... awww how I missed the little fellow x3